An old song (Just friends)Awkward silencesBetween you and IYou lean on meAnd my heart pounds so quicklyYour hand is next to mineBut we don’t do a thingBecause no matter what the fantasies sayIn the bitter end, we’re still just friendsMy miseryContinues to growWhen we talkAbout your crush Why can’t it be me?You look at himWith adorationWith all that loveMy jealousy ragesWhy can’t it be me?When we speakThere’s not that much to sayYou give me hugsWith the warmest of affectionsStop teasing meWith all this friendly loveI end up asking“Does it mean anything?”I bet if I had the courageTo tell you how I feltYour arms would be wrapped around meMy miseryContinues to growWhen you don’t seeMe as a loverWhy can’t it be me?You look at meThen look
No more runningI've lived withThe expectations to...Shut my mouthAnd keep everything insideIt builds up fastAnd can't be let outsideMy face wincesIn an expression so distrustingWhy do I haveTo hide my feelings?Why do I have to shut my mouth?No more runningFrom the truthIt's time to standFor what I live forENDURE THE PAIN WITHINNo more seekingFor meaningless liesTime to ventureFor what I believe in FORGET HOW THE HURT FEELSI look in myReflection every single dayIt sickens meRight to the core of my heart I walk in shameMy posture very curvedMy eyes dishonored Unable to look at my loved oneWhy do I haveTo hide my feelings?Why do I have to shut my mouth?No more runningFrom the truthIt's time to stan
LabelsThat girl you called a slutWas raped by her father when she was only 10 years oldThat girl you called uglySpent 3 hours putting on make up to get her crush to notice herThat guy you called an idiotIs mentally ill and has the I.Q of 60 That guy you called a cry babyJust lost his little sister in a car accident That girl you called worthlessTries her best everyday in hopes of finding someone who notices That girl who you call the teacher's petDoesn't have the courage to stand up and say noThat guy you called a total play boyIs secretly gay but knows that he'd surely die if word got outThose kids you called socially retardedWill grow up to be great and intelligent leadersYou don't know their storyYou don't know their pastSo why are you labeling them?
I'll fight to make you mineI can never be your handsome princeWho you fall for regardlessI can never be the perfect oneWho's stable and most promisingI can never stop crying over our loveAnd I know that you're sick of itI tell you that all I think of is youAnd your voice turns all bitterBut at leastI have my independenceI'll stand up and I'll fightI'll follow my own rulesBut stay between the lines I'll try to make you mineAnd endure the pain withinI'll look at you and fawnOver your imperfect flawsI'll stay there and I'll fightWhen someone claims you their'sI know that you're mineYou're all I need and moreI know that I don't deserve youThat you're priceless in my heartI'll tell you that you're gorgeousAnalogize hope diamondSo please just hold me near whenMy tears fall down my faceSo please just cuddle close whenI'm about to breakI'll fight for all your loveI'll do whatever it takesTo have you in my armsTo put you out of harmNo matter what the painI'll try to venture
TheyThey think that theyCan, just push me aroundTheir oblivious ignorance blinds themThey think that they Can, just take what I haveTheir selfish desires take overI thought that I foundSomeone who really caresBut I was just sadly mistaken...THEY FOOLED METHEY HURT METHEY DIDN'T STOPUNTIL I BLEDUNTIL MY TEARSFELL IN THEIR HANDSUNTIL MY MOUTHSPILLED OUT THE TRUTHThey think that I'mA worthless pawnWho cries at everything They think that I'm Some soft weaklingWho they can push aroundThey don't knowEven half the truthAbout the tears I shedSo why do they call me worthless?Why am I just a speck of dirt? Am I really that disgusting, For them to say those words? THEY FOOLED METHEY HURT METHEY DIDN'T STOPUNTIL I BLEDUNTIL MY TEARS<i>
Experience of VulnerabilityThey always tell youThat the past is historyThat you need to lookInto your bright futureAnd to not dwell On the things that happens beforeBut when you look at itRemembering your past isn't badI've had a very rough childhoodNo loving parentsBeing emotionally unstableUnable to play with other kidsBeing different from everyoneThe pain when I moveAfter being beat up for so many timesAnd scars from surgeries When I remember these thingsIt makes me reflectOn who I've become todayI'm now a total loser and a wimpWho is a freak to everybodyWho can't control her emotionsBut at leastI've gone through things That few people have gone throughI can at least tell youWhat it felt like to bleed on that cold floorAnd have no one help youThey say you can change who you areAnd forget what happened in the pastThat's becauseThey haven't even experienced the painThat certain people have sufferedThe horrible truth isThe future can't change anythingIt ca
My future is importantI see you with himYour smile lightning upAs he speaks to youIn that deep masculine voiceI just stand thereWatching a new love blossom When our old love's petalsSlowly fall onto the groundI hear you and him talkingHe's asking if you want to go on a dateYou hesitate to answer but soon You say 'Yes!'My heart was now confusedWhy did you say yesWhen we were still in love?Does he even know that we're already dating?The girls around in the classroom Squeal with excitement As the news went aroundThat the cutest guy and girl were going on a dateMy lips quiveredI was tempted to run into her classroomAnd slit that boy's throatSo you could never hear his 'sweet' voice again My hands tensed upMy fingers enclosing to form